The big TWO FIVE

In my honest to god opinion, i think once someone hits @% it pretty much downhill from there. Just like a bell curve, I'm on top, staring down at the steep slope that lays before me. It scary to know that for the past 25 years I've been not only wasting earth's precious resources but also digging chunks out of my parents retirement fund. I haven't done anything that I'm proud of as far as I'm concerned. I've haven't touched anyone's lives or changed it anyway. In fact I think I'm no different then the bum that sits on the corner of the street begging for money. But it;s not all doom and gloom. There are things i do look forward to as i grow older and wiser hopefully. Things like, i can finally use the term "I've eaten more salt than you've eaten rice young one" and when i say "I'm going home and sleep" i actually mean it. And I've learn how ironic this life is, like how you cant noticed something that's right in front of you until it's gone.



Thanks guys for the cake and song. I was really surprised or too high i dunno. I forgot it was my birthday when you guys sang the birthday song to me the first time, i thought it was for shwe.. haha.

On a different note, I should have learned from other people mistakes. What?! Once a emo always a emo?! It was a one off thing. But i should have taken cue from the master of emoness, right josh?

And the fish down there happens to be my favorite fish.. so many fishes in the sea, but i still want NEMO. So screw u.

why?

May Angels Lead You In

Gary Leon Robert went missing after the Adidas King of the Road 2009 at about 9 something in the morning in Shah Alam on the 2nd of August 2009. Search efforts were carried out by friends and family on the 2nd of August and the 3rd of August. His body was found in the stadium on the 3rd of August at about 1pm on the 3rd of August.

He is truly a great person in whatever he does; a true man. The Lord must have loved him more and brought him home. Nevertheless, Gary, you may not be here with us anymore but you will always be with us in spirit. May angels lead you into heaven. Condolences go out to his family and loved ones.

To those who had seen him that day, please do let us know as we our clueless on what could have happened.

Your dismissive attitude towards boobs...

and hell begins, for tmr a new semester of quizzes, tests, finals, projects, pain, lack of sleep, anguish, anxiety and many more indescribable feeling mixed into one begins... and you wonder why i end up end emo all the time..

"My buddies over there said that I wouldn't be able to start a conversation with the most beautiful girl in the bar. Wanna buy some drinks with some of their money?"

AskMen.com

"Look, in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with." Juno

Think i should get a dog

"A dog has no use for fancy cars, big homes, or designer clothes. A water log stick will do just fine. A dog doesn't care if your rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb. Give him your heart and he'll give you his. How many people can you say that about? How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special? How many people can make you feel extraordinary?" John Grogan

People

This morning a friend and I went over to the DKSH warehouse sale praying that it wasn't jam packed like the Adidas warehouse sale. They had a good concept where it seemed like it was "Hari Keluarga" with all the tents put up. My aim was to get a watch which I did; but anyways, this is not what I intend to write about today.

MALAYSIANS. We can be so "kiasu". There was this Vico van there giving out free drinks; like the Milo or Nescafe vans. You and I both know how small of a cup they give. You should have seen the amount of people that was queuing up just to take a few cups of free Vico. If it were some sports day where everybody's thirsty and can't seem to find some other drink, I would have accepted the queue. The queue was longer than any stall selling things (well, there wasn't a queue to buy stuff as we MALAYSIANS don't like queuing up; we just push our way in and get what we want). And in this queue, it wasn't like it was majority kids, there were aunties; not too sure bout uncles (uncles like my father tend to not go for this kinda things). Is the economy that bad that everybody is so desperate for a pathetic cup of Vico?

One more thing about Malaysians. If you don't intend to buy anything from a certain place, don't just stand there to see what is going on just because there is a bloody crowd there. If you're curious fine; but just have a look and then get the hell out of there man. Don't just stand there for like 10 - 15 minutes just looking and then only walk away.

Somehow we think Singaporeans are "kiasu"; people look around you.

i think i have it worst, nick

first week of it is over. this was what i did for the past week

Monday: read a page 200++ (i dunno exactly how many pages cause i didnt bother finishing it) on pneumatics, told the stupid manager i finished it. he was surprised, i told him i was just reading through only since i wasnt required to memorised it. he believed me.

Tuesday: stupid manager ask to write a manual on pneumatic training kit, complete with theory, questions and solutions. Found an online workbook, thought that i could just copy and paste. Till he ask me to modify the questions, i told him i didn't know exactly how the system works, then he told me go read the book. and google talk

Wednesday: was ask by the stupid manager to format company laptop which took all morning and half the afternoon, was trying to modify the questions. google talk. got bored in the afternoon went downstairs to the factory and to help install a packaging machine.

Thursday: was asked by the stupid manager to fix the copier machine. applied my engineering knowledge and miracoulously fixed it. it was broken down for more than a week. everyone knows the stupid manager broke it, even the office lady said it was him to which he replied like a whining little bitch "bukan saya". Double sided tape can do wonders.. Later i was given a "project" by the stupid manager, he asked me to go test the auto tray stacker machine. He showed me the machine and talked me through it. then i asked how do u turn it on, to which he told me he had no idea. the client wanted to us to make two new fittings for 2 different tray sizes. so had to adjust the rail guards to fit the new trays. client was coming in tmr.

Friday: Staring at the manual. the stupid manager tapped on the shoulder to tell me that my client was here. i was like was wtf, that not my client just because i do ur shit work doesnt mean that he's my client. u see the stupid manager loves to put the blame on other ppl when things go wrong so by making the person my client i was suddenly responsible for anything wrong with the machine. and as always something was wrong, the stupid manager designed a two feed fitting instead of one. standing there i was saying to myself oh fuck. i'm left once again to do his shit work. the fitting had to be re modified. long story short it was a fucking mess. asked the Myanmar do one thing he go do another. one of the fittings had to be done 3 times cause the myanmar messed it up. btw, we have 2 myanmars panjang and pendek the other 2 ran away. i had panjang today. in the end i asked a technician to help me with all the grinding, drilling and wielding. what should have been an 2 hour job took the whole day. come to think of it we have 3 myanmars in the factory, one sits in the office and calls himself the project manager.

we all call him something else..

i'm very grateful to have the colleagues that i have, otherwise i would give u the myanmars email address so that anymore of u can do me a huge favor and email this to him.

and i'm so under dressed no seed work shirts only a stupid collared t-shirt and safety boots. the t-shirt not my size also, xxl, how to show off my toned body.

seems like all i do is complain, but i kinda enjoy doing the work for some weird sadistic reason.

and this just the first week. cant wait for the next 11 weeks. yipee.

everybody, how was ur week?

love,
jian xiong.

p.s. just because i'm not always there doenst mean i dont love you guys. i cant always be there to meet up due to some very unforeseen circumstances, it's all my fault. right chocolate bear? ask cb (chocolate bear for short) to be lenient a bit then things might just work out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAV, U BIG PUSSY. pics better be gone and the memory card formatted. i'll have myanmars after u.

NOTICED THE NUMBER OF CHICKS IN THE OFFICE? EXACTLY HAHHAHAHAH. WE'RE FUCKED

Work, Work, Work

For those of you who know us, you would know that we started our industrial training this week. So this is my first week of work.


Office job, stressful job by ~FriXedAirwave on deviantART

Day 1 - Read up on some stuff and suddenly my boss tells me that after I read up brief them about the thing; by them I mean my colleagues and some other people from another department. I was like wtf?

Day 2 - I get an e-mail confirming the briefing time and place. Seriously, wtf? He seriously expects me, a trainee to give a briefing??? By the way, the briefing is to be held on Monday at 9 am.

Day 3 - After lunch I went to the client's place, NTT MSC in Cyberjaya. They host servers. Darn their server room looks cool. Looks like those hacker movies where they go into the server rooms, plug in their lap top to one of the servers and you know what happens next.

Day 4 - Client's place the whole day. Hard work man.

Day 5 - Was in the office rushing preparation for the briefing on Monday. Talked to my boss about the briefing. The way he mentioned it, it seems to be like darn serious. After lunch client's place did some testing. At bout 5.45 while doing our testing client came. The client was so darn kecoh. This and that, this and that. Then, I almost had to work tomorrow (Saturday). Thank God the contractors not working so can't go to the client's place and Monday I have to go back to the client's place so the briefing is postponed. =D.

Well that was my 1st week of work. But all in all I think it feels much better than last year when I worked in Technip. Don't know if it is just less boring or I sort of knew what to expect already. Hope everybody else are coping well with their work.

Moment of emoness: on Monday I was thinking, "Shit, one more year of study, then grad, then it's like this for the rest of the time until retirement. This is not good"

But then again, to end our 1st week of work those of us who were in this part of the world met up for a couple of beers. I'd say the week wasn't too bad after all. Lets pray it all goes well for another 11 weeks.

welcome to my life........

...well for the first 3:10 mins of the show anyway, everyday for the past 4 years.



we're starting our internship next week, hopefully it'll be like the next 9.02 of the show. but so far the only guy who i think has a chance of actually achieving this is ROGER.. haha. All the best clubber.. All the best to everyone, try not to lose a limb or something..

Dont be part of the statistics

These videos are meant to scare the shit of out you.. Remind you guys and gals to be extra careful and be extra vigilant. As you can see, the crimes are almost always committed by the chans on motorcycles. So be extra careful of your surroundings, look out for motorcycles. Especially ladies with your handbags. Or when your talking on the phone, they'll snatch anything and everything. So they can fucking have money to sniff glue.. This is what our society has become.

source: zerotohundred.com

No, this is not an emo post.

25th February 2009 marks the day i start posting on this blog. Suddenly i feel like i have ample of time in my hand. Could have studied for test, could have worked on MDP project, could have done proposals, could have read magazine but instead i succumb to the sudden urge to write-to-tell feeling surge upon myself to blog.

I am currently hooked on to a song by James Morrison - Once I Was Little and here are the lyrics to the song.


Verse1:

I was the one,

who would always jump in first

Didn't think twice to look behind

Got such a good feeling,

just from playing in the dirt

Once, when I was little



We could build a rocket,

fly to the moon

Leave Tuesday morning,

and be back for noon

There wasn't nothing,

nothing that we couldn't do

Once, when I was little

umm......

Once, when I was little



Chorus:

Yeah I could dream more then

Yeah I believed more then

That the world could only get better

Yeah I was free more then

I could pretend more then

That this life could only show me good times

Once, when I was little

umm... ohh lalala



Verse2:

There was a time when I trusted everyone

Yes I did

There was no place that I would not go oh no

Spend a day on the hillside next to the hollywood

Oh once, when I was little

Yea once, when I, I was little



Chorus:

Yeah I could dream more then

Yeah I believe more then

That this world could only get better

Yeah I was free more then

I could pretend more then

That this life could only show me good times

Once, when I was little



Bridge:

Used to feel so strong

Even when they tell me,

tell me I was wrong

That I can't live in a magic world

Cause it's time for me to grow up

That I got to be like the rest of them

When I know there acting up ohh



I could believe more then yes I could

I could pretend more then

That this life could only get better

I could believe more then yes

I could I could pretend more then

That this world could only show me good times

Once, when I was little

When I was little



So here comes the next one,

the next in line

Stay as young you can,

for the longest time

Cause those days flew by

Like a breeze just passing through

Once, when I was little



haha. It's a great song. It kinda reminds me of how i used to be so naive and trustful of all the good that the world and the people could offer. And of course, as i grow up, i've learned about certains things through hardship knowing that i am not always right and life isnt what i perceived it to be. I have realised that once you are at the peak of your life, be prepared to fall because when it catches you offguard, that is when you are gonna suffer the most. Again, no, i am not emo. Maybe i am, but isnt that why this blog is established in the first place?heh.

Ice Cold

On the other hand, work is piling up. There are just alot to be done. Industrial training will begin in April. I'll be in Malacca. The thought of doing everything "ALONE" makes me feel so reluctant to go. But, i am trying to be a lil optimistic. After all, Malacca is not a bad place rite? You have the famous Jonker St, all the historical places, Purebar and so on. To comfort me further, at least it's better than Pantai Remis. The only thing i know about that place is that..... DAMN.. I dont even know that place. :P


-rogeryang-

Recession?

I honestly haven't felt how the economic crises has affected me in anyway.. Maybe it's because I'm still living off my parents.. yeah sad i know..Till now the only way i can tell that recession is actually happening is through the papers and me not getting an internship (but the internship thing is already settled, thanks josh i love you) so yeah through the papers only, until it hit close to home. The transvestites that roams the streets at night............. now sells nasi lemak in the morning to supplement their income..That's gotta tell you something about our economy right? So people recession is here, so stop buying so many pairs of shoes. Anyone want nasi lemak for breakfast tmr? I haven't tried it yet though, both their nasi lemak and their services in case your wondering. And i don't plan to, in case your wondering.

P.S. How you think i got my driving license? Anyone can drive a stick, nothing to shout about, unless your a chauvinist and go around shouting "I drive a stick, i'm a real man". How does driving a stick make you a real man? Shows that your good with shafts? Cant get any more man than that.. *if this sounds defensive, it's not in case your wondering, i don't mind driving an automatic, it's the best thing that happened to mankind especially in KL.

This Is Me, Drunk

Due to Saggy's allegations of me, I just have to write this.

A few things I would do when I'm drunk; or so I've been told

1. Curse and swear a lot and I mean A LOT. I think every alternate word is usually f*ck. Saggy you might have heard me cursing the other night when LaLa was on the phone with you, but then again I swear even when I'm not pissed drunk. Plus, I wasn't shouting to LaLa that I'm gonna kill him.

2. Count numbers. Don't ask me why. But it goes something like this, "1!!!! 2!!!! 3!!!! 4!!!!".

That's all I can recall for now; but anyways Saggy I was not pissed drunk the other night, LaLa was exaggerating.

P/S: Real men drive stick

Little by little - Oasis

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Have fun!


1) IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Make you my baby – 911 (I just might. Let's see if anyone asks me this tomorrow. Hehe.)

2) HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Picture to burn – Taylor Swift (WTFKNNCCB?! You'll pay for this BEAN! :P)

3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Makeover – David Cook

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Born for this – Paramore (So full of optimism. I like.)

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Nothing else matters – Metallica (Contrary to popular belief, I am no longer the emo kid I was last year. Would have been funny if I did this last year wouldn't it?)

6) WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Shattered dreams – Johnny Hates Jazz

7) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Lollipop – Lil Wayne (Sweet, colourful, and bad for your health?)

8) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Love spreads – Stone Roses

9) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
He ain't the leaving kind - Rascal Flatts

10) WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Love song- Cure

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Saturday afternoon – Hazel

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
The way I are – Timbaland ft. Keri Wilson & D.O.E.

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Lovebug – Jonas Brothers (No, no. I want to be rich and famous. Just like the pussycat dolls. OR the pussycat boys? WAKAKAKAKAKAKA)

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Love is gone – David Guetta (This one cracked me up. Haha. Those of you in the know should get this. Haha)

15) WHAT WILL/DID YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Bottle it up - Sara Bareilles

16) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Shout – Tears for fears *click for lyrics (I really don't know how to explain this. Read the lyrics and figure it out for yourself.)

17) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Place in the sun – Brisa (All the talk about me getting a tan. Hmmmmm.)

18) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Far away- Nickelback (Yes, I fear being far away from the people I love. So true.)

19) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Follow you home – Nickelback (There ARE a few people I would like to follow home. Again. So true. I'm starting to worry that Winamp might have a life of its own.)

20) WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Panic attack – Unkle (Wtf?!)

21) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Goodbye my friend – Spice Girls (So not true. I love all of you to bits. Even more so after yesterday. Haha.)

22) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Little by little – Oasis

I've been reading countless meme's on Facebook and even got tagged in a few. I thought it was hilarious but I never thought I'd actually do it. But after a gentle shove from Bendy, I caved and did it.

I can't bother commenting on some of the songs as they are so wtf.

I haven't heard about half the songs. Haha. Don't ask me why I have so much music on my playlist. Most of the time I just download them and never get round to listening. Hehe. But it sure made the meme that much more interesting didn't it?

So whoever reads this, try it out yourself and have a few good laughs. I know I did.

j

Who u gonna call?

Saggy.

Yup not ghostbusters, me.

The phone rang at 4 in the morning. Without bothering to look who called, i knew it was josh. It had to be him, it always was him. Every time he would get high/drunk he would call me. It was starting to worry me. So i confronted him the other day and asked him why me? And he told me it was because he doesn't mind disturbing me at night. But I wasn't buying it, i think he secretly harbors feelings for me but wasn't drunk enough each time to actually confess it. Well anyways, i picked up the phone and angrily said "Dude, why you calling me?". See i was having non of it that day and i was gonna make sure he was going to confess there and then so he would stop calling in the wee hours.

But to my surprise it was roger. Maybe roger has feelings for me too.. i was worried. But what really worried me was tone of his voice. He sounded really scared. He was like "we are going to SJMC and cannot find the place. If in 10 mins we don't get there call someone to come get us. i cannot drive and nick doesn't seem to be able to drive as well". While in the background i could hear nick cussing and all. So that really got me scared. Let's fast rewind to a few months back, we were at luna bar. After luna had closed, we were all standing outside the car park when nick pulled out a cigarette ,lit the wrong end and took a puff. I laughed my head off, but i stopped when i realized i had to get into his car. I asked if he can drive, nick said yes. But it was not like i had a choice, i couldnt drive for him. I dunno how to drive a stick, for those wondering why. Inside the car, i was scared, so i dont really blame roger for feeling the same way. Nick couldnt stop cussing. He was like "Fuck you", "Fuck you la", "I'm gonna fucking kill you" and "Dude, you went up to ang moh chicks" all the way from luna to pelita. Well at least that confirms one thing.. nick doesnt secretly harbor any feelings for me. We all know who he harbors feelings for but lets not go there.

Well anyways, as karma would have it.. i called josh. I could hear he was damn sober. So i screwed him for letting 2 drunks get in the car. He told me, nick was fine when they left mos. And i told him, not according to roger and what i heard in the background. I called roger back only to have nick answer and tell me that they had reached the mamak. WTF. Then i called josh, but for some reason he didnt want to pick up the phone, to tell him that the 2 were fine. After a few more calls, i gave up and concluded that he was doing the nasty nasty and i went to sleep.

In the end everyone got home in one piece. And i learned that when talking to sue lin make sure she listens to jay chou songs first.

Guys, heed the lyrics of the song and call GHOSTBUSTERS. Not me,

Valentines

To all our beloved readers, although not many of you;

Happy Valentines

Here's a virtual rose just for you

Valentines by ~Functioneer on deviantART

p/s: im bored sitting my a** here...haha...

Need one?

i too, come in five flavors.

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Time Machine Launch@Quadttro

How low can i go?

Surely way lower than this.. without a doubt.

Killing Time

So I'm sitting here trying to kill time online and nobody's online to chat with. Thus, I decided to check out "Saggy & Co's Emo Page" and I saw Saggy's post of his shoes. Then I thought to myself if Saggy is going to show off his shoes, so am I; considering that I have some time to kill.

So first off in my new shoes collection are my very first limited edition pair of shoes. Which by the way are extra limited edition. Why is it so I'm not going to tell.They are Adidas July's 2007 Flavor of the World Gazelle Vintage. The flavor for July 2007 is lavender. Only just then did I realize that its retail price is RM479.90 (taken from this website).



I have always wanted a pair of Adidas Superstars and last December I finally got it =D. I bought a pair of Adidas Superstar II Queens. This model is inspired by the Jam Master Jay and his home borough of Queens, this Superstar court shoe represents NYC just like Jay did. Jam Master Jay was more than a DJ. He did more than make beats for RUN-DMC. In truth, he was the very definition of true street style.



Together with the Superstars, I got a pair of adiZero Pro; which I think I should use more often if you get what I mean. This shoes are awesome; its lighter than my slippers weighing only 8 ounces.



Well, I'd have to say that day I felt like a girl buying so many pairs of shoes. I got myself a pair of Adidas Predators hoping to "bend it like Beckham" the same time I got the pair of Superstar and adiZero. Crazy right? Three pairs of shoes at the same time. In my defense I would have to say it was an offer I could not resist and that technically I did not buy this pair of shoes; I called my sisters and told her the price and she was like, "buy le, I'll get it for you for your birthday" and then I was thinking to myself "YES!!!".



Lastly, just this Chinese New Year I got another pair of sneakers. D*mn I love sneakers. I bought myself a pair of Adidas NRTN Evolution.



Those of you who are reading this post must be thinking I'm some Adidas die hard fan or I'm writing and Advert for Adidas. Well, I don't think that I am. Next on my list of shoes to get are Nike Air Force Ones. =D

p/s:
Vote for me!
Stupid Saggy so free put the poll and then didn't invite people to vote.
I bet the one person that has vote so far is Saggy voting for himself.
Plus, this is proof that there is only one vote so far.

Things i learned over CNY

1. Never give out rm100 bills to people, they wont appreciate it. Instead give it
in domination of rm1 every now and then. They'll appreciate it more.
2. Taking on one competitor may seem like the easier choice, but do keep in mind that
you'll have to contend with karma as well. And karma can be a bitch.
3. I have a knack for the strangest things. Bought a pair of superstars clr....



mushrooms arent the only things that glow in the dark anymore..my shoes glow in the dark too..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

May the year of the ox bring you health, wealth and chicks.

Glow in the dark MUSHROOMS.....cool

Welcome to the blog, mushroom, it's not always so dark and gloomy here.. u just caught me at a wrong time... Read my older post i was happy...once. i still haven't figured out what i want yet from u..i'll let u know.

New year new blog name??

it just get from bad to worst doesnt it, from abunchofcrazyfriends to abunchofdesperatehornybutsensitiveguys to this.. first and foremost i did not up with this new title.. it was given by josh, which i personally find very insulting cause when it comes to emo-ness, how i can i put it, he's like the micheal jordan of emo-ness..so yeah i felt something when he called me up to ask me to check out the blog and deleted his account from this blog.. but then i realized that he may just be right not right RIGHT just a slight hint of right with a little seasoning of wrong by the side.. i wouldnt go to the extend of calling myself emo. But eversince christmas i have been feeling one kind, what kind of kind i dunno..but i can tell i'm not my usual self. i dun talk as much, i think, i dont joke as much and i want to lefted alone most of the time. i wake up every morning with nothing much to look forward to except to try to get throught the day as best as i can then get home. time past very slowly while the world around me seems to be flying by, it's like being stuck on the slow lane while other cars whizz past you and you cant do anything about it.. i feel so powerless with no control whatsoever, my future looks very bleak.

i decided to post it...instead of writing on the chat box

U cb-cbs sekalian dun wanna post anything, so i post la.. music is a reflection of ones' self. those are love songs.. not emo song. Ok, maybe one love song and emo song. Alicia's song is beautiful.. the other song is just plain emo.. damn emo actually.. so i'm feeling beautifully emoed. in Alicia's song, we all have something that we want to say to someone but we're too afraid to say it and when we mustered enough courage to say it we realized its too late..

This my personal take, i think there;s nothing wrong in telling how u feel about her , but some ppl make it sound like if u just cursed 17 generations of their family and freak out.So what if u dun feel the same way.. it's alright, there's nothing wrong with that. i think that's why most ppl end not telling and most ppl end up not knowing.. which i think it's quite sad..

"feelings are like your mother's breast, u know where they are but it's better left untouched"

nick has something he wants to tell someone(___________), andrew too (____________), roger too (____________)

Tell you something - Alicia Keys

Get so caught up everyday
Tryna keep it all together
While the time it slips away
You see I know nothing last forever

Imagine there was no tomorrow
Imagine that I couldn't see your face
There would be no limit to my sorrow
So all I can say

[Chorus:]
I wanna tell you something, give you something
Show you in so many ways
'cause it would all mean nothing if I don't say something before it all goes away
Don't wanna wait to bring you flowers, waste another hour let alone another day
I'm gonna tell you something, show you something, won't wait till it's too late

[2x] (I can't wait, I can't wait, I won't wait, I don't wanna wait)

Just a simple conversation
Just a moment is all it takes
I wanna be there just to listen
(I wanna be here)
And I don't wanna hesitate

Imagine there was no tomorrow
Imagine that I couldn't see your face
There would be no limit to my sorrow
'cause there's nothing that could fill that space
I don't wanna put it off for too long
I didn't say all that I had to say
I wanna take my time and right the wrong before we get to that place

I wanna tell you something, give you something
Show you in so many ways
'cause it would all mean nothing if I don't say something before it all goes away
Don't wanna wait to bring you flowers, waste another hour let alone another day
I'm gonna tell you something, show you something, won't wait till it's too late

Just lean on my shoulder,
It's not over till it's over
Don't worry about it cause
I'm gonna make sure our bond gets stronger
I don't wanna wait till the storm and something wrong and now you're gone and I can't find you

I wanna tell you something, give you something
Show you in so many ways
'cause it would all mean nothing if I don't say something before it all goes away
Don't wanna wait to bring you flowers, waste another hour let alone another day
I'm gonna tell you something, show you something, won't wait till it's too late

I wanna tell you something, give you something
Show you in so many ways
'cause it would all mean nothing if I don't say something before it all goes away
Don't wanna wait to bring you flowers, waste another hour let alone another day
I'm gonna tell you something, show you something, won't wait till it's too late

[x4] I can't wait, I can't wait, I won't wait, I don't wanna wait

Why- Secondhand Serenade

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.