tick tock.............

tick tock, tick tock, tick tock,

every second spent sitting here thinking of what to write is another precious second of sleep wasted.

the reasons to why i am even in front of the computer at 1.20 in the morning when i have to be up at 7, seriously escapes me.

maybe its because i am hungry.

maybe its because the weather is so SCREWED UP.

or maybe its because of some stupid suggestion by an equally stupid person to write something tonight before i go to bed.

i can always choose to write something that is totally uninteresting, like how i've finally gotten a full license, or about, what my plans are for tomorrow.

but no, i sit down here and rack my brain to think of something. i thought about how my day went today.

i know no 2 days can be equally the same, but yesterday and today were like opposite ends of the spectrum. like the north and south pole. black and white. one day you feel like u're on top of the world. next, your face is in the dust. haha.

but when that happens, you know that there will be someone there who will be there to pick you up, slap you in the face and say, "dont be stupid, it was your choice. you could have chose to stop anytime but you just continued with it. so take it like a man."

does anything that i am writing right now make sense to anyone of you? i myself dont know what i am talking about. haha. its late. the morning air is sort of like a drug. i suddenly dont feel sleepy anymore. hehe.

on a whole other note, i want to know something.
is it better to lie to protect someone's feelings?
or is it best to keep things honest at all times?

what do you guys think?

i used to think, honesty, as cliched as it is, IS THE BEST POLICY.
but after yesterday, my opinion on it has just changed. a little white lie, is not thaaaaaaaaaaat bad, if you are trying to keep someone happy, right?
but wouldnt the person you are lying to be even more unhappy to find out that he/she was being lied to?

if any of you had the perseverance and read this till the end, do let me know what you think alright. haha.

till my next nonsensical rant,
cheers
josh