the perfect wallpaper for saggy

as usual being lazy as f*ck i'm sitting in front of my com instead of studying for finals tomorrow. but anyways, here i am sitting finding desktop wallpapers and i found one just for saggy. well more like for us emo lonely ppl. haha.


*image taken from www.deviantart.com

saggy gets his title stripped

last night we went for the iem charity dinner...which had crappy food but we compensated it with drinks later on...anyways there wasn't anything interesting about dinner but while having drinks later on...hrm hrm hrm...

so we decided to head over to luna bar after dinner...if only we had more chicks with us...sighs...haha...so yewah while were just chilling drinking suddenly i see saggy walking over to this table of ang mor chicks...i think he was trying to show that being the oldest of us all he needed to teach us how to pick up chicks...haha...i was thinking to myself "seriously?"...and there saggy went trying to impress the chicks with his american accent...he really had it going until they said they were going over to beach club...haha...i personally think saggy scared them away...haha...but anyways...saggy's title of chicken was stripped off...any takers for the next chicken? haha...

emoness

after 3 days of being almost sleepless which somehow didn't feel too bad, reality hits in...wtf? *sorry for my language kids*...but seriously wtf? is it just me? the emoness just sinks in...yeah the emoness not the tiredness...there must be something wrong with me...with much need of sleep all of a sudden this wave of emoness hits me...and so here i am writing c*ck while i should be sleeping nicely on my bed..dreaming of some paradise with chicks all over unlike the God forsaken uniten...sighs dreams dreams...if only they came true...i think im mixing around tooo many emo ppl...when i was young i was never this emo...saggy im sure you get the hint...=p...

after much research and studies on how to solve this emoness problem, one question still remains, "are chicks getting extinct?"..or wait maybe its "brain drain" but in a different kind of sense where about 90% of the chicks aren't in malaysia anymore? they seem to be flying off here and there...ironically, numbers somehow show that there are supposedly more girls than guys in malaysia...how can this be? i think some *ss wanted to make malaysia sound like a better place...

so anyways, back to where i am now...im sitting here all emo while chatting with saggy trying to solve this emoness problem but it ain't working...oh yeah i was telling saggy my theory about my botakness...ever since i went botak i seem to be single...haha...what do y'all think?

and one more thing anybody willing to help me solve my emoness problem of being alone...haha...btw for those of y'all who didn't know this is for chicks to answer...although im studying in uniten but i ain't a saiful decendent...and now time to hit the haysack...

Epiphany?

Been asking myself WHY for the longest time, asked by many before me and going to be ask by many after me..
like the others before me, i've been very clueless, lost and without an answer for the longest time..
UNTIL today... EPIPHANY!!!

All those sleepless night finally ends with someones' pm...
as i was reading it i could have sworn i saw the clouds break away and a ray of light shinning through hitting my tear soaked face. After reading it i broke into a song and dance, and out of nowhere abunchofsingledesperatehornybutsensitive indian dudes appear from nowhere and started dancing and rolling about while i was playing a game of peek-a-boo behind a tree with this indian chick..

"you like her not because she is beautiful, she is beautiful because you like her"

Makes sense to you? for some reason it did to me the first time i read it.. it even spoke to me, but then after reading it a few more times.. i'm left asking myself WTF..

All those before me, let say we have a discussion group, every Tuesday night say eight-ish? refreshments will be served..

mindless ramblings of an old dude

It been a good 7 months since i posted anything.. time surely flies doesn't it? Especially when ur doing cock.. i really dunno why i stop posting, i think I'm just freakin lazy..i have a lot things i would to write about mostly crap but still things i would like ppl to read about... things i would nvr tell them face to face.. i write between the lines so technically i'm not telling it to their face in writing also.. haha.. it just like if u have nothing good to say dun say it at all..but it not only bad things i wanna say. i think the best way to put it is unspeakable things...it's kinda like when u want to shit really badly and ur your stomach hurts so bad u feel like ur going into labour, the moment u pull down ur underwear/boxers/g-string and the shit starts coming. At that exact moment, the feeling...i cant describe it, u have experience it to know the feeling but i would say second fiddle to an orgasm? haha. Blogging for me it just for the release.. no pun intended.

So a little update on what went on for the past 7 months.. NOTHING MUCH.. had one of the worst semester..i wanna farking scratch the grade into the mofo's car.. see how he feels. Some say i deserved it.. maybe i did but i feel u deserved it too cause u didnt do that better than me but somehow ur grades were better me... life's unfair, live with it right?

Then came the long awaited 3 months holiday.. i generally dun like long holidays much, i cant be not doing anything u know sleep and eat.. but the with the 3 months i could at least work.. went back to telemarketing the one job i swore i would never take up again. but when u need money... the working environment was ok ,no stress no sales targets to hit, worked under a really great team leader and cant remember the last time i was early for work.. there female outnumbered the males, so it was a good change, felt good too.. got to meet of new people and friends. Being a telemarketer is no easy feat especially if ur working for astro.. these ppl think i freakin own astro that want me to change this and that..Put another satellite up they would tell me. You learn to control ur emotions better too, having a mother farking cb cuss at u and not being able to cuss back it like ARGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!! but after a while u get used it.. haha. But there are other weird moments like when this dude started asking for my name and age.. i was like fark this gay dude is hitting on me.. but then it turned out that he had a job to offer me a Rm20,000 per month job.. he wanted my number so he could "contact" me.. yeah i was right the gay dude was trying to hit on me.. i was like "erm, i have ur number here, I'll call u.." Then there was this aunty whom i talked to for almost an hour with, the poor thing she was just so lonely.. telling me how her sons and daughters were all away studying..

Then there was the hk trip, which was very much needed.. hk is great, very systematic and clean but surprisingly very few chicks or i was just looking at wrong places..i was on a psp deep red hunt in hk.. went to all the sonystyle in hong kong only to find it sold out in every shop.. anyways i find hk to be very hectic they're lifestyle where everyone lives in sardin cans, i wouldnt live there.. but shen zhen that a different story, there the girls outnumber guys 6 to 1 according to my cute tour guide and shen zhen girls are not that bad looking, tall, fair and developed.. they speak Cantonese just like the honkies so u dun have to put up with annoying deep china mandarin accent. Something really funny happened before the trip, happened in the lcct, was lining up to enter customs... when this chick came up to me and said "Leng Chai, then in annoying deep china mandarin accent ask me to help her to carry her bag" i was like damn she is hot, i checked her out earlier before and now having her stand in front of me and talking to me i was kinda stunned, it happened so fast, before i could say anything my dad was like "no, sorry cant help u carry that"..haha.. Hong kong trip was great. So basically that was what happened for the 3 months..

Before the holidays i told myself that i had to get these 4 things done.. only manage to get 3 of them done. The fourth one is elusive little bugger, the plan was to get at least a girl pal, not even a girlfriend..someone u can basically hang out without the emotion.. if the word fubu pops in ur head u couldnt be more wronger haha.. it like having a buddy but a female version to get a different perspective on things. Was talking to su lin the other day.. and she asked how was i ever going to get a chick if all i said was "haha" on msn.. haha. i dun talk much in real life, so that why i like girls who talks alot not bitch alot.. fine line, but i can hold a my end of the conversation and i'm a pretty good listener, girls dig that i heard.. haha. then she suggested that i hang out more with gayish people, then i asked what happened if the dude was for me instead, then she pointed out gayish not gay.. but i dunno that many gayish ppl.. maybe one or two from secondary but i havent been in contact with them SHIT.. there one from the telemarketing company but i think he is more gay than gayish.. haha.. But that got me thinking i dun have a girlfriend cause i'm too busy doing god knows what for one or i just dont want one for now.. still done have a exact answer.. my grandma is very eager to see me with one... She even ask my mom to introduce a 30 year old woman to me..haha. i'm letting her down.. everytime i visit her she would ask me the question. i wanted to lie to her during the recent visit.. but i couldn't, told her the truth and changed the topic asked her to tell me bout her past..haha. i would tell her how my uni is like this and like that.. but i think it just excuses cause if u really wanted something u like how navin puts it "make it happend"... like how he made it happen with sun.. i wanted to a couple of times make it happen but never could bring myself to. My friend right i'm just too careful, not to hurt. Well i guess i have get hurt sometime..

How many "haha" already, shit i going to be old and alone.. Speaking about being old just turned 24, fark.. as u get older age isn't just a number anymore it's a benchmark.. and looking at my 24 years i haven't done nuts i can proudly shout on top roof tops.. But i would like to thank everyone who celebrated my birthday with me.. thanks for making it a great night for me. i would like to point out the 3 guys lost their virginity on my bd, their clubbing virginity that is namely justin and tiliban.. You wish u had lost ur virginity virginity right... haha. I had a great night.. a few pleasant surprises... have to learn how to dance though.. hahah.. been able to hold my liquor much better now, last time all it it took was a bottle of beer and half a glass of baileys to get me start counting white spots.. so hopefully this post will justify the last 7 months of no post.. Enjoy su lin..

cant sleep!!

i have been rolling around on my bed for like 3 hrs and i still couldn't sleep...wth....it is probably because of the strong coffee i drank a few hours ago. Nooo....why can't i sleep at the moment when i needed it the most..So here i am blogging..holy shyt i am goin to sleep in the cinema tomoro....okok that's beside the point....the main point is that me blogging here..still...means just 1 thing ...and i thing only..i am still single >.<....anyways, i took a color quiz just a while ago...it suppose to show our personality..dunno whether it's true...wanna try it and check my results? go to http://www.colorquiz.com/.......i think its quite true about myself...i dunno...i guess...i m starting to talk crap..may be its the coffee or maybe its the lack of sleep factor...i think i will just lay on the bed until it's actually the time for me to wake up...

euphon's Existing Situation

Unable to exert the efforts to achieve his objectives. Feels neglected, desiring greater security, warm affection, and fewer problems.

euphon's Stress Sources

The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand his ground. He feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to him and from which he wants to escape, but he feels unable to make the necessary decision.

euphon's Restrained Characteristics

Feels cut off and unhappy because of the difficulty in achieving the essential degree of cooperation and harmony which he desires.

Clings to his belief that his hopes and ideas are realistic, but needs encouragement and reassurance. Applies very exacting standards to his choice of a partner and wants guarantees against loss or disappointment.

Feels that things stand in his way, that circumstances are forcing him to compromise and forgo some pleasures for the time being.

euphon's Desired Objective

Needs to feel identified with someone or something and wishes to win support by his charm and amiability. Sentimental and yearns for a romantic tenderness.

euphon's Actual Problem

The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond his capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. He attempts to escape into a substitute world in which things are more nearly as he desires them to be.